This year has been a year of self-exploration. I’ve been doing a lot of soul-searching, and discovering how I’ve been showing up in the world, is not who I am to the core. Your soul-self or “higher-self”, is who you are in the highest light, your intuitive knowing and voice that’s calling you towards something greater, who you truly are behind limiting beliefs, self-doubts, baggage, and self-sabotage.
I’ve been asking myself: Who would I be without limiting beliefs? What could I accomplish without self-doubts? Could I step outside of my comfort zone and follow my dreams, if fear didn’t exist? How would I be showing up in my relationships and for myself, if I loved myself whole-heartedly?
It is not easy digging through years of subconscious programming and bullshit stories you’ve learned and been conditioned to believe. But it is possible, if you are willing to put in the work. I’ve been calling on my soul-self to come forward in my meditations this week, taking time to fall into a deep trance state, where I’m able to visualize what she looks like, how she presents herself, and who she embodies.
Throughout my life, I’ve always had that voice in my head that says, “You could never do that”, “That isn’t possible for you”, and the ever-so-lingering, “You aren’t good enough”, so I stayed small and in my comfort zone, because of fear. But as I’ve become more in-tune with my body, more connected with my soul and tapping into my spirituality, I believe I am not meant to live a mediocre life. I am not meant to sit in front of a computer for 8 hours a day, looking at Sales reports, feeling uninspired. I am meant to connect with people on a deeper level, who are like-minded. Who want to reprogram their subconscious, open themselves up to receive, break free from self-sabotage and start manifesting the things they truly desire! I want to connect with those who believe they aren’t meant to live a mediocre life either. Or at least, feel a calling to dig deeper, even if they don’t believe it yet. I want to help them BELIEVE.
The perfectionist in me, wants to have a plan and know exactly what it is I am meant to be doing. What my purpose is and how I will serve people, but my soul-self reminds me to slow down, breath into it, flow with it, explore it. Continue to write, be creative, share your ideas and insights, share your experiences and victories, connect with people, and believe that your vision will fall into place. If there is something your soul is calling for you to do, continue to follow in its path, by staying connecting to her. Continue to visualize her, talk to her, ask her for guidance, believe you are her, and eventually you will embody her.
My soul-self always shows up wearing white, standing in a ray of sunshine with long brown wavy flowing hair. Her face is glowing and you can feel her energy radiating. Her smile comes from within, she is confident and at peace. She loves connecting with people and helping others embody the true essence of who they are, body and soul. She treats her body like a temple, feels strong and sexy, eats nourishing foods, moves her body in a way that feels good, shows up in relationships authentically and wakes up every day with an excitement and zest for life. She lives close to the ocean, always connecting with nature, and is present, aware and loves wholeheartedly. This isn’t just who I want to become or who I wish I was. THIS IS WHO I AM.
Ask yourself, what are your values, what are your passions, what are your strengths? If you have a gut feeling there is so much more to life than the one you’ve been living, you too, can connect with your soul-self, and ask for guidance on how to move closer to her. She is always there. She lives within you. Trust her. Be still. Look within. Listen with love and compassion to your inner voice and release blocks. Surrender to the Divine source within you.
Sending you so much love, my soul-searching babes.
XO Stephanie
